inner voices

Does This Blog Make Me Look Fat? When Inner Voices Aren’t Very Nice

Jill Miller by Jill Miller | November 8th, 2011 | 6 Comments
topic: Fitness, Health & Wellness, Healthy Eating, Personal Growth, Yoga | tags: anorexia, body-image, bulimia, criticism, disordered eating, eating disorders, fat acceptance, Geneen Roth, Gil Hedley, inner voices, kids, mental-health, parenting, parents, teens, weight, Yoga Tune Up®, young women

Eating DisorderHow I became the chubby kid

As a child, I was given free reign to eat whatever I wanted. This meant daily bowls of crushed oreos in milk, after-school snacks of burgers and fries as a “treat” for answering phones at the family business and, in the evening, half a pint of Haagen-Dazs for dessert. Every day I satisfied my “junk-food tooth” on top of my favorite past-times: reading, watching TV or playing with Barbies. Consequently I was that kid. The chubby one.

At the time, I didn’t have a lot of critical self-consciousness about it … I can’t remember inner voices telling me “you’re fat” or “if you eat that you’ll get fatter” (although I did always wear a T-shirt over my bathing suit). I say “inner voices” because there actually were some external voices saying these exact things to me, directly and out loud: my parents and grandparents. They saw my bulging belly, thick thighs and chipmunk cheeks and thought it went beyond cutesy “baby fat.”