bulimia

This Joint Is Jumping — Getting Comfortable in an Unstable Body

Jill Miller by Jill Miller | March 13th, 2013 | 6 Comments
topic: Fitness, Yoga | tags: addiction, Astanga, body, bulimia, eating disorder, fanatic, joint cracking, joints, overuse injury, pain, recovery, Relationships, Repetitive Stress Injury, Repetitive Stress Syndrome, self-massage, strength training, tissue breakdown, too much yoga, Yoga, yoga poses

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Are you addicted to crack? Cracking your joints, I mean! There were years during my 20s when I could not fathom getting through my early-morning yoga practice without popping my shoulders, low back, hips and neck. I was popping and cracking my way through the day like a one-woman band.

Usually these fast internal whacks felt great, a rush that temporarily relieved aches and pains. What I didn’t know at the time was that all that cracking was not only emblematic of my body’s instability, but it was accelerating my own tissue breakdown.

What Do You Store in Your Core?

Jill Miller by Jill Miller | July 24th, 2012 | 13 Comments
topic: Fitness, Personal Growth, Yoga | tags: abdominal massage, abdominal pain, abdominal surgery, abdominals, abs, back-pain, bulimia, bulimic, core, Coregeous, eating disorder, emotions, Kelly Starrett, Mobilitywod.com, nauli, nauli kriya, pilates, post-partum, post-partum depression, scar tissue, Yoga, Yoga Tune Up®

Core MassageWhen I was an 18-year-old yogini, I was also an active bulimic. I was in college studying dance, training to be a shiatsu therapist (Japanese pressure point massage), making sandwiches and slicing salami at Jimmy John’s Deli, racing around Chicago learning yoga, and using food to self-medicate.

During that time, I remember never feeling connected to my core, my abdominal muscles. My Pilates teacher was always giving me corrections that I could not embody. In dance class, I was never able to find balance in my turns or jumps, and I would often duck out of class in frustration. Then I would become even angrier with myself because I was a quitter! This would inevitably lead to a binge and purge.

Does This Blog Make Me Look Fat? When Inner Voices Aren’t Very Nice

Jill Miller by Jill Miller | November 8th, 2011 | 6 Comments
topic: Fitness, Health & Wellness, Healthy Eating, Personal Growth, Yoga | tags: anorexia, body-image, bulimia, criticism, disordered eating, eating disorders, fat acceptance, Geneen Roth, Gil Hedley, inner voices, kids, mental-health, parenting, parents, teens, weight, Yoga Tune Up®, young women

Eating DisorderHow I became the chubby kid

As a child, I was given free reign to eat whatever I wanted. This meant daily bowls of crushed oreos in milk, after-school snacks of burgers and fries as a “treat” for answering phones at the family business and, in the evening, half a pint of Haagen-Dazs for dessert. Every day I satisfied my “junk-food tooth” on top of my favorite past-times: reading, watching TV or playing with Barbies. Consequently I was that kid. The chubby one.

At the time, I didn’t have a lot of critical self-consciousness about it … I can’t remember inner voices telling me “you’re fat” or “if you eat that you’ll get fatter” (although I did always wear a T-shirt over my bathing suit). I say “inner voices” because there actually were some external voices saying these exact things to me, directly and out loud: my parents and grandparents. They saw my bulging belly, thick thighs and chipmunk cheeks and thought it went beyond cutesy “baby fat.”

To Vegan or not to Vegan? The Yogi’s Dilemma

Jill Miller by Jill Miller | February 9th, 2010 | 17 Comments
topic: Fitness, Health & Wellness, Healthy Eating, Weight Loss, Yoga | tags: ahimsa, anorexia, bulimia, diet, eating disorders, fat, food, Jane Fonda Workout, nutrition, vegan, vegetarian, Yoga, yogi

Vegan Yoga

The New York Times article “When Chocolate and Chakras Collide” triggered a cascade of associations for me around yoga, food and eating disorders. I am a proponent of any diet that makes you feel well in both body and mind, and that one person’s food can literally be another person’s poison. I truly appreciate the dilemma that many folks face when they decide to commit fully to the precepts and teachings of yoga, but I also think there is another side to the story – that of “rules and restrictions.”

Are You Exercising Too Much?

Katy Santiago Bowman by Katy Santiago Bowman | July 24th, 2009 | No Comments
topic: Health & Wellness, Healthy Eating, Weight Loss | tags: bulimia, burn-calories, diets, eating disorder, excessive exercise, exercise, exercise bulimia, exercise habits, exercising too much, healthy-eating, weight gain, weight-loss, working out

over-excericseHave you ever exercised a bit harder because you had ice cream the night before? Ever justified making a poor dietary decision (dessert/second helping/third cocktail) by thinking, “I’ll work out twice tomorrow,” or “It’s OK, I ran 10 miles today”?