It is even more difficult to define a path for yourself. The person who does not make a choice dies in the eyes of the Lord, even though he continues to breathe and to walk about the streets. For a man has to choose, therein lies his strength: in the power of his decisions.
If you have a past with which you feel dissatisfied, then forget it, now. Imagine a new story for you life and believe in it. Focus only on the moments when you achieved what you desired, and that strength will help you to get what you want.