Most people tell you they want to get out of kindergarten, but don't believe them. Don't believe them! All they want you to do is to mend their broken toys. "Give me back my wife. Give me back my job. Give me back my money. Give me back my reputation, my success." This is what they want; they want their toys replaced. That's all. Even the best psychologist will tell you that, that people don't really want to be cured. What they want is relief; a cure is painful.
The pain that you create now is always some form of nonacceptance, some form of unconscious resistance to what is. On the level of thought, the resistance is some form of judgment. On the emotional level, it is some form of negativity. The intensity of the pain depends on the degree of resistance to the present moment, and this in turn depends on how strongly you are identified with your mind.
Source: The Power of Now : A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment, Pages: 27
Healing is not what I ask for. For I understand now I will continue to carry this sorrow. I just wonder if the music can be my mask, for the sorrow can be painful. Who knows how much longer my construction will continue. My heart can only take so much of the real world. Sometimes stepping away from the real world even if temp or putting on a mask, can be an escape to an oasis while I become the man I am meant to be. I understand in the end Music is my escape from the pain but its just a mask until I shine and become Man and Overcome the sorrow that is the real world.