There are no feelings of bliss or joy or any describable feelings at all really, only a sense of forever, filling this moment. Not as a time, forever, or a motion outward to some place, forever, but the eternal now moment as it is. Simple. Like floating in a small room which has many doors and they are all locked shut. Almost sterile. Untouchable.
There is the feeling of being finished. The end. The attention is held right here, in the body, in the moment, with no-one and no-thing. The depth of feeling and connection at the eyes when open and closed is no longer here. There is no internal centre. There is no feeling at all other than the senses operating. It is as if all of the doors to the mind have been shut. Nothing scary, nothing monstrous, just nothing here.
A true insight occurs in a moment, a split second, and it brings a subtle shift in your perspective. The 'experience' which surrounds the insight is generally entirely superfluous and is merely the Self or mindbody package attempting to own and understand the insight.
During the sitting, when the eyes closed the body relaxed and seemed to turn to warm liquid with all vestiges of the worries and anxiety of earlier oozing away and falling into a deep state of peace. After some while it felt as if I was looking into the abyss of nothingness. I felt the surrender and the possibility of dying was a natural next step. Give all of it up and drown in the Oneness of God. I knew that was all I had ever wanted. It was at that stage that all the build-up of the mindbody package that I knew to be "me/myself/I" seemed to slip off and was moved to the side, sort of floating to the left. Then the eyes opened and it was as if nothing had changed, yet with the feeling that everything had transformed irreversibly. Utterly unable to place what had actually happened, and with no desire to place it.
It is all so very simple but this simplicity will not be seen via your familiar vision of looking at everything via the running commentary of your mind informancy. Awakening to the state of the natural man will only come about through you consciously choosing to move from this, that already is - and this you are very capable of.
There is nothing wrong with anything in manifestation; all manifestation is a movement of the divine one gearing up for the very purposes of this divine one entering its own creation with the fullness and purity of itself.
All of the ideas we have about 'Enlightenment', 'Self Realization' or whatever spiritual names have been given to our true nature, make it very difficult when the real does shine through. We then mistake the real for too ordinary or not mystical enough, and then we end up creating a more exciting version of reality, which is obviously not true.
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Source: Beyond the dimension of self how to ebook by Julie Sarah Powell: http://www.beyondselfnow.com/ebook.html