despair

Red lips, White lies.... I smile for you.

I looked at the ceiling and wished this life was over.  This unhappy life that had started out so confidently.  I thought I would sleep no more that night but eventually I did.  In the end we always wear out our worries.That's what Wireman says.  (as the character Edgar from 'Duma Key')

"You need hedges.""Hedges," I said, bemused.  "Yes, Edgar." He looked surprised and a little disappointed, as if I had failed to understand a very simple concept.  "Hedges against the night."(in conversation btwn Edgar and his Dr.)

Despair is the price one pays for setting oneself an impossible aim.

Love is not always power; that
may be as good a description of the
human predicament as we are
likely to get.

Happiness, enthusiasm, joy and love are just as contagious as sadness, apathy, despair and fear. Which will you spread?

We were told we could do anything we wanted and then when we tried they told us we couldn't. That's Generation X, the generation trapped between idealism and despair.

David Brainerd-saturday april 10 1742

oh, that al my late distresses and awful apprehensions might prove but Christ's school to make me fit for greater service, by teaching me the great lesson of Humility!

d.b.mon. april 26, 1742
Oh that i could spend every moment of my life to His Glory!!

tues. april 27 1742
if i had a thousand lives my soul would gladly have laid them all down at once to have been with Christ.

i never felt so great a degree of resignation in my life.

oh that my soul might never offer any dead, cold services to my God!

friday april 30 1742

Nothing greives me so much as that i cannot live constantly to God's glory.

David Brainerd-Sunday, april 4 1742

O my Blessed  God! let me climb up near to Him, and love, and long, and plead, and wrestle, and strech after Him, and for deliverence from the body of sin and death. Alas! my soul mourned to think i should ever lose sight of its Beloved again. O come, Lord Jesus, amen.