alone

"Never alone am I, no matter how strong the feeling that may overcast my soul."

Even when utterly alone, the self is forever relational, and therefore always looking... at something. At times with the bird's eye view, it looks up to see cosmic origins, at another time it glances down to see the hardened cocoon of the body. And then it sees that there are other meshes, of gender, culture, times, ambitions, or just the greatest restriction of all, the compulsion to communicate, the greatest illusion of our lonely lives.

“I want to love you but you don’t want to love me. I can’t love someone if they don’t have the same feelings for me as I do for them”

Its no good trying to get rid of your aloneness
You got to stick to it all life .
Onyl at times at times the gap will be filled in,
At times!
But you have to wait for those times

"Our reason has driven all away.
Alone at last, we end up ruling over a desert."

Born alone to escape thoughts conceived within a dying star.

"Solitude is learning that we are not alone when we are alone."

It takes community to maintain a human.

When I was alone and had nothing
I asked 4 a friend 2 help me bear the
pain no one came except...God
When I needed a breath 2 rise
from my sleep no one could
help me except.... God
When all I saw was sadness
and I needed answers no one
heard me except.... God
So when I am asked whom I
give my unconditional love 2
look for no other name
except...God!

Everything looked and sounded unreal.  Nothing was what it is.  That's what I wanted -- to be alone with myself in another world where truth is untrue and life can hide from itself.