julie sarah powell

True realization brings you to the point where you see that you don't know a thing. That you literally cannot know anything, because all knowledge is from the mind and is therefore garbage.

.....through living as your true nature you will see, not mentally but through your own direct experience,
that your true Divine nature is always here at all times, in all situations and life circumstances
and at no time is it ever possible to lose or leave it.

This is NOT some stale old chore which you have got to 'do'.

The true beauty of realizing your true nature is in the freshness,
peace and deep bodily relaxation which touches to the core of your
being, flows into your everyday life and bursts forth naturally
into blossoming from within itself. Without you 'doing' a thing
about any of it.

It is very important to note that this is NOT a limited
meditation 'practice' or 'technique'.

The Self (me, myself, I) is a ghost, a phantom creation which is allsmoke and mirrors.
The unfortunate part is that we identify and fight with it, react and respond to it and treat it as if it
is a living breathing entity.

None of that changes the fact that it is all smoke and mirrors.

The planet is like a mad house with no nurses and far too much medication.

You are, you always have been and you will always be in this same place whether you are aware of it or not.

This place is this eternal now moment. Not as an idea of now, but simply right now.

You find when you stop fighting life that naturally relaxation, openness, loved and loving is all there is. Naturally.

You need to stop the fight. Stop creating that smoke. Only then can life flow without the confusion, frustration and suffering that it appears to be so full of.

All that is required for you to live the freedom of your divinity is to again become
familiar with returning back to your true nature. Being it and sinking deeply into living as it.

Elysha was talking about the mindbody package, and suddenly it struck. That was it. The penny dropped with a clunk. That is what had been missing from the picture over the past weeks. The mindbody package was gone. The Self was gone. There were no internal arisings, no emotions, and no feelings of the package of who I thought I was, which felt like it was just the tip of the iceberg with loads more under the surface. Nothing.

With this revelation the feeling in my chest lit up like a fire and felt as though it was burning and shining like a great beacon of joy. I saw that the Self is dead, in a clear momentary flash. A huge smile suddenly burst out. Joy was breaking through and there was no containing it.

The day to day chores and mechanical flow of life all continued as before, but with no energy going into them. Pushing through in some moments and melting into the abyss in others, no choice in any of it. During sittings it was felt that the body and all of existence was melting and would never return again. When the end of the session came and the responsibilities of life started up again the moves would occur and life would go on as usual.

Internally, however, was a whole new paradigm. The perspective had shifted to a whole new sense. The mind was still functioning, but restricted to a strictly practical level. Not a constant burble and with no energy to touch this place. Like a waterfall in slow motion, which defies gravity and seems to float quietly past making no ripple within itself and touching nothing. Only spontaneously emerging when needed and then fading away again.

There are no feelings of bliss or joy or any describable feelings at all really, only a sense of forever, filling this moment. Not as a time, forever, or a motion outward to some place, forever, but the eternal now moment as it is. Simple. Like floating in a small room which has many doors and they are all locked shut. Almost sterile. Untouchable.

There is the feeling of being finished. The end. The attention is held right here, in the body, in the moment, with no-one and no-thing. The depth of feeling and connection at the eyes when open and closed is no longer here. There is no internal centre. There is no feeling at all other than the senses operating. It is as if all of the doors to the mind have been shut. Nothing scary, nothing monstrous, just nothing here.