Nothing will ever force me to think my life was useless. I lived it as well as I possibly could. I admit I never had a positive outlook on life. I am still one of the biggest pessimists on the planet. I'm not saying I hated life, no of course not. I just always took a good situation and found the worse possible results from a good situation. I do not regret any of my decisions. Not even the bad ones. I'm not an ignorant fool, I know I made horrible choices in my life. Some you wouldn't even imagine, but clearly they weren't bad enough to kill me. I have never been afraid of dying. Death was the furthest thing from my mind when I was younger. In fact, when I was a child I felt like I was going to live forever. It wasn't until I turned fifteen and witnessed the death of a close friend, did I realize immortality was unachievable. To be honest, I always felt that I would die young, between sixteen and twenty five. All I hope to leave for my children and my grandchildren is the memory that is me. Maybe not the bad choices I made and certainly not my foul mouth, but the memory of my ability to stand tall, even when life threw it's worse at me.
Contributed by: JamesRivers