Oh that God would humble me deeply in the dust before Him! i deserve Hell every day for not lovingmy Lord more, who has, i trust, loved me and given Himself for me. -David Brainerd...thurs. april1, 1742
Friday, April 2 1742 David B. But now, my soul more frequently desires to die, to be with Christ. Oh that my soul were rapt up in divine love, and my longing desires after God increase! In the evening was refreshed in prayer, and with the hopes of the advancement of Christ's kingdom in the World.
Saturday, April 3 1742 I thought, if God would take me to Himself now, my soul would exceedingly rejoice. Oh that i may be always humbleand resighn to God, and that He would cause my soul to e more fixed on Himself, that I may be more fitted both for doing and suffering!
O my Blessed God! let me climb up near to Him, and love, and long, and plead, and wrestle, and strech after Him, and for deliverence from the body of sin and death. Alas! my soul mourned to think i should ever lose sight of its Beloved again. O come, Lord Jesus, amen.