Healing is not what I ask for. For I understand now I will continue to carry this sorrow. I just wonder if the music can be my mask, for the sorrow can be painful. Who knows how much longer my construction will continue. My heart can only take so much of the real world. Sometimes stepping away from the real world even if temp or putting on a mask, can be an escape to an oasis while I become the man I am meant to be. I understand in the end Music is my escape from the pain but its just a mask until I shine and become Man and Overcome the sorrow that is the real world.