In the past two years, I have been devoting a lot of time to my physical health. I changed my eating habits and took working out to a new level. I released 20 pounds and have kept if off. It has required me to be completely dedicated to honoring my commitment to living a vibrant and healthy life.
At the beginning of this process, I placed special attention on contemplating the pattern that put the weight on in the first place. My background was filled with physical and emotional abuse. I had to do a great deal of work to heal. That healing created the work that I currently practice. And during my contemplation, I saw a picture of armor around my body. And guess what? It was around the area most affected by my abuse.
I began to journal, and I discovered that when I get thin, I don’t feel safe. When I don’t feel safe, I eat. When I eat, it is never enough to make me feel safe. So the task became: Learn to feel safe without food and the need to feel protected. In the first year, every time I wanted to eat to make myself feel better, I repeated the phrase, “I release the armor; I am safe and I hunger only for oneness.” I prayed to crave only what was good for me and to love working out as a way to self-nurture.
The weight came off, and I continue to be excited about eating healthy foods and exercising.
If you relate to my experience in any way, I would love to support you in releasing any physical armor that may be blocking vibrancy and health.
Try this exercise to help you drop your emotional armor
Sit down and center yourself. Have a journal or a piece of paper next to you. Begin to breathe in slowly until you feel relaxed.
Now connect to your body. Where does it reflect stress or overeating? Don’t judge; just witness. Now imagine that there is armor in that area. Your body has a language, and you can have a dialogue with it. Ask the following questions:
1. How is this armor serving me?
2. What habits and behaviors keep this armor in place?
3. What is the fear underneath the armor?
4. What would life be like if the armor were released?
5. What does my body need to feel whole?
I encourage you to contemplate these questions daily for a month. Your only task is to journal the answers and be totally honest. Create an affirmation, similar to mine above or the one below, and say it every day. At the end of the month, write down what you are committing to do. It doesn’t have to be big. Mine was to work out a minimum of three days a week and eat no more than 2,000 calories a day.
I’ll leave you with an affirmation to try as part of this exercise …
Today, I release any unwanted armor. I vow to treasure my body and live a life that is healthy.